The Clearest of Nights & Coldest of Stars

{012.} Thankfulness. TL;DR

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 23:53:34 GMT

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This curse today really is a nice one! Everyone seems so happy, and has long lists of people to thank, and I'm no different I guess.

To all the hospital staff: thank you for all your hard work! It's great working with such dedicated people, and it's been really interesting learning about the healing methods on different worlds, and sharing what I know about mine with others. I'm particularly grateful to Lilith-sama and Unohana-sama: the two of you allowed me the chance to work at the hospital despite my age, judged my skills objectively, and didn't treat me like a child, and I know I said it before, but thank you again! And Yamada-san, you were one of the first people I met here, and you've always been kind to me, and willing to listen and give advice. I can't thank you enough for that. ♥ A-and I really wanted to bake you a thank-you cake, but...I've tried three times now and nothing seems to be going right. I don't understand it, either--I've baked cakes like these for years with no problem...

To all the Konoha and Suna nin: I'm so proud to be able to say that we're from the same Village, or that we're allies. You're all so strong, and seeing you all in action just makes me even prouder that I can call you my comrades. Thank you all for being so accepting of me.

[private || filtered to Okuda Takiko-san]

I had such a great time eating out with you! We really should make more of a habit of it (and I've seen your posts about looking for a job, so if money is a concern, I don't mind paying!). I really wanted to bake you something, too, but...well, I'd better just stay out of the kitchen for today...

[private || filtered to Haruno Sakura]

Sakura-senpai! I made us breakfast and it’s tamagoyaki and rice and miso soup, one of your favourites (...I think? I hope! You have it a lot, so...), and I made that special tea that you like and I also made us lunch to take to the hospital, so we don’t have to go to the cafeteria today. And I packed your bag, and ironed your uniform, and your boots were looking a little scuffed and dusty so I polished those, and your headband was looking a sorta dull so I polished that, too!

…Didn’t you have some books that needed to go back to the library? I’d be happy to return those! And what did you want for dinner tonight? I’ll stop at the corner store on the way back and pick it up! Unless you wanted take-out of some kind instead? I can pick that up, too, just let me know!

[private || filtered to Hatake Kakashi ♥]

...I owe you the most of all, of course...and I'd really like to show my appreciation~ So if you're not doing anything later tonight~

[ooc; Sakura? Yeah, fyi, that omelette is full of aaaall sorts of spicy things. ~~SHE DOESN'T KNOW HOKAY. DX~~ And Kakashi? ~~...RUN. 8D;~~ We can has awkward akshun thread tiemz nao plz? XD]

{011.} Just A Day Like Any Other ^-^

Sat, 15 Nov 2008 14:25:19 GMT

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So many people here in the City have been coming down with the flu the past few weeks, and the hospital has been pretty busy lately with people suffering from dehydration and other common side-effects of influenza, but thanks to those immunizations, things have been better than they might have been. If we hadn’t had those…well, we did, and I’m glad.

[private || filtered to Naruto crew + Yamada Hanatarou + Okuda Takiko]

I was thinking of asking if anyone wanted to go out tonight and find something fun to do, or someplace fun to go, but with that virus going around, maybe that isn’t such a good idea. I hope you guys all got that shot ~~and there were plenty at the hospital, so if you didn’t, I brought a few home with me, just in case~~.

[private || hackable if you’re determined]

I really do like my job, but I’m still glad I took today off. Happy birthday to me?

So…I’m fourteen today. ~~Which is still way too young for~~ It’s not one of those milestone birthdays or anything, so it’s really not important, and if no one else remembers it, I don’t mind. I haven’t told anyone that it’s my birthday, and Kakashi would be the only one who might know it, but…probably not, since he never really remembered back when he was my age. ...Not that he remembered anyone's birthday ~~other than his own of course, haha!~~ I’m not so sure birthdays count here anyway. I haven’t really been measuring, but I don’t think I’ve grown any these past few months. I wonder if we can’t grow up here. If we can’t, it makes birthdays seem a little silly…but then again, it’s nice to let the people you care about know that you’re glad they were born, so I guess they’re still a good thing, regardless of whether you’re actually getting any older.

…I really do want to grow up someday, though. I got to see what it was like during that curse a few months ago, and it makes me a little excited about being an adult. Back home I was an adult more or less, since anyone who graduates from the Academy is technically considered an adult, but most of the people here in the City don’t think that way. I can’t really blame them, since a lot of the kids here in the City that are my age really are just…kids.

I think I’m gonna start measuring myself to see if I’m growing at all. I really hope I am ~~especially since I don’t have to worry about hitting my growth spurt before Kakashi does anymore XD~~ Being small is nice sometimes, I guess, but I think it’s nicer to be able to reach things that are up on high shelves or in tall cabinets on your own.

{010.} Costume, Got!

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 00:15:33 GMT

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~~Despite what Gaara-sama said~~ I think this "Halloween" thing sounds like fun! I even picked up a costume on the way home from work today.... I-it was just so cute, and it was my size, too, so I just couldn't resist...and I've seen a lot of this sort of outfit in the store windows, so that means it's the right kind of thing to wear, right?

Anybody else from apartment building #3 wanna go trick-or-treating with me? Kakashi? Sakura-senpai? Yamada-san? Anyone? ^^;

{009.} Accidental Video Post

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 02:27:54 GMT

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[A rather bewildered-looking ninken is snuffling inquisitively at the computer screen...meaning for a while there, all you can see is a lot of moist black dog nose pressed against the screen and making it all smeary. After a moment, she moves away from the camera, and can be seen scratching at the bedroom door. ~~Woe for a life without opposable thumbs! DX~~]

[calls in a small, yippy voice, which degenerates to a howl at the end]

Sakura-senpai? Anyone? I want OOOOOOOOOOOUT!

[ooc: Full pic here. Art = not mine.]

{008.} Many Happy Returns

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 03:25:04 GMT

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Thank goodness today's curse isn't too bad...just having a letter stuck to my shirt isn't much of a problem, though I guess I don't really know what the "G" stands for.

[private to Kakashi || hackable]

...I don't know if they really count here--I mean, I don't know if we're actually getting any older--but that doesn't mean I'm going to forget the date. Happy birthday! ~~Is 30 considered "over the hill"?~~

Did you want to eat out tonight, or would you rather stay in? I was thinking that you could come over to eat with Naruto-onii-chan and me, and we could invite Sasuke-san, too. Is there anyone else we should invite? [~~...is wishing Sakura-senpai hadn't disappeared... ;_;~~]

I got you something. I hope you don't mind accepting it. ^^;

{007.} Dear Diary

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 14:55:49 GMT

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[Public; obviously MEANT to be private ~~so feel free to be nosy XD~~~]

Why can't I stop thinking about him today?

Being here in the City, meeting new people like Sakura-senpai and Yamada-san and Naruto-onii-chan, has helped me keep my thoughts away from the past, enabled me to move on a little bit and stop constantly blaming myself, inspired me to work harder, if only to make up for my past mistakes, and let me start to enjoy life and have fun again. And having Kakashi here, even if he's older and a lot different from the one back in my time (in ~~mostly~~ good ways), has made things even better...but today, for some reason, I just can't seem to avoid thinking about this question. I've...I guess I've wondered this ever since...but today I feel like I have to ask, even though I don't want to know the answer. Even though...I probably already do.

Today, I just can't help wanting to ask...

...Did you ever blame me for his death?

{006.} Aftermath I

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 04:28:23 GMT

Uhm…to anyone I might’ve run into last night ~~I can’t really remember~~, I apologise for my behaviour. I don’t think I ran into anyone I know ~~other than Kakashi, which was bad~~ ~~good~~ ~~horribly embarrassing~~ ~~fortunate I guess because at least he knows me, but still humiliating~~, but if I did, I’m really sorry.

…On the bright side, being older was kinda nice, especially during my hospital shifts. I was a lot more productive, and could work a lot longer before I got tired, so I didn’t need as many breaks. It was easier to reach things, too! ^^

[private || unhackable]

…I can’t believe my older self did that. Going out and drinking to work up the courage to confess to Kakashi? And then taking advantage of our relationship as teammates, and how nice he’s been to me ever since I got here and...

~~…And yet, a part of me almost wishes--~~

[filtered to Sakura, Hanatarou, and Megumi || unhackable]

…I’m not at all familiar with this sort of thing, and I feel pretty silly asking about something this minor, but we didn’t really have time to learn about this in the middle of a war ~~and my head hurts too much to do any reading up on it~~, so…do any of you know, er…the best way to deal with a hangover? I’ve been trying to drink water and get myself rehydrated, but it doesn’t really want to stay down, so it’s slow going.

[filtered to Kakashi || unhackable]

~~Please don’t--~~ ~~I-I’m sorry about--~~ ~~I didn’t mean to--~~ ~~…I really don't know what to say but...~~ Th-thank you for looking out for me yesterday…

{005.} Changes fill my time, baby, that's alright with me

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 09:08:58 GMT

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She was still confused about suddenly finding herself in this "City" instead of Konoha, but when Rin had found herself in the middle of a night shift at the hospital here, she’d just gone with it, staying and working her allotted shift and most of the day beyond that (though she’d taken her lunch hour to step out and buy some clothing that actually fit--why, she hadn’t worn the outfit she’d first found herself in since she’d been thirteen, the shorts now being uncomfortably tight and the shirt just a bit too small and far too short for her liking).

This older version of Rin was far from stunning--she’d been rather homely as a child, and she was still somewhat plain as a twenty-something adult--but she was pretty enough to earn a second glance every now and then. She wasn’t ridiculously curvaceous either, but her figure was slim and decidedly feminine nonetheless, and she moved with the fluid grace of a dancer.

…Or at least she had before she’d stopped in at that bar on the way home from the hospital.

She’d been putting off having this talk with Kakashi for years now. Ever since Obito’s death, since her almost-confession that he’d cut off, he’d been so distant--always there to look out for her and protect her, even when he shouldn’t’ve been, but still distant. He had gotten even worse when they’d lost Minato-sensei, but he’d still seemed isolated even before the Yondaime’s sacrifice. Kakashi had been in ANBU ever since Team 4 had been officially disbanded, and Rin hated that, hated that Sensei had allowed it, hated that Kakashi was using it to punish himself, hated that she knew that all the mindless killing was slowly eating away at him and yet she had no way of getting him out, hated that she wasn’t ANBU material herself, hated that even now, years after the war was over, he was still a part of the Black Ops, and that he was still so goddamn distant. Emotionally, when not physically, because she still saw him fairly often; he just never met her eyes for long and didn’t seem to have much to say.

Well, he might not’ve, but she certainly did. And today she’d make certain he listened to the whole thing. Not that she hadn’t tried before, of course, even after his initial refusal to hear her feelings; she’d just always been too shy, too nervous, too uncertain of how he’d react to ever go through with it, and had second-guessed herself for not letting all this go and giving up on him years before.

But today would be different. She’d really wasn’t much of a drinker, but losing some of her inhibitions might be of use in this situation, so she’d decided to have a drink or two. Unfortunately, two seemed to have been one too many. She hadn’t known (and still didn’t know) enough about mixed drinks to be very familiar what had been in them, but they’d tasted sweetly bitter and she’d downed them quickly, which was probably a mistake since she'd skipped lunch...

Her normally-smooth gait now showing evidence of just a bit of a stagger, Rin continued on her way down the street, heading for home (wherever that was) but maybe kind of sort of a little bit accidentally taking the scenic route, due to street signs and things being ever so slightly blurry and all of the buildings looking the same, especially now that it was nearly dark out. She didn’t really know where she was supposed to be going in the first place.

Finding herself at the Fountain, she stopped to sit down on the edge of it for a minute--not for long, just until the world stopped spinning...

[ooc: ...Apologies for the tl;dr, but we've not seen an older Rin in canon, so the idea wanted some fleshing out.]

{004.} You live in my memories...but you die in them, too.

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 16:21:07 GMT

[accidental/involuntary video post]

Hey, wha--

[And then she can only sit and stare at her computer monitor as the memory--her memory--plays, stunned and horrified and struggling to stay in control of her emotions all over again, because for her, this still only happened about a month ago.]

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[ooc: Apologies for manga (memory lasts from 243 p.10 - 244 p.9) rather than actual video, but the losers in charge of getting Naruto animated keep deciding that ~~truckloads of steaming, shamelessly mind-numbing bullshit~~ filler is OBVIOUSLY SO MUCH BETTER AND MORE IMPORTANT than getting Kakashi Gaiden animated. -_-x]

{003.}

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 17:01:16 GMT

It's gotten so cold today, and it still hasn't stopped snowing! It's really pretty though...I hope everyone out there is dressed warmly enough--you wouldn't want to get frostbite. But if you do, or think you have, I'd be more than happy to take care of it for you! :)

Hey, Sakura-senpai, Naruto-onii-chan! Come out and build snowmen with me! Minato-sensei and Kakashi, you guys should come, too!

[ooc: Anyone, especially anyone in Building Three, is welcome to join her~ Action tags = quite welcome. ♥]

{002.} Directed Largely to the Other Hospital Staff

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 05:04:11 GMT

Uhm! Yamada-san, Akechi-san, and anyone else who works at the hospital here, I guess…

With today’s curse (it has to be a curse, right? There’s no other explanation for why I can’t find my clothes anywhere, and Sakura-senpai is missing all of hers, too, and when I try to cover myself with something, it seems to get caught and tear on everything and nothing and then falls off the instant I loosen my grip on it), are we still to report for work at the hospital as usual?

I mean, we’ll probably still be needed there, even if we’re…a little indisposed, won’t we? It’s not like this is a life or death situation…

Private || Hackable [because we’re still learning about filters, yes~]

I know shinobi aren’t supposed to be body-shy, and it’s not like I didn’t see naked people at the hospital all the time back home, but…this is just strange. Even my hitai-ate won't stay on...
Though it’s not like I have much of anything to hide anyway, haha! ^^;

~~Still, I'd really rather not run into Sensei. Or Kakashi.~~

[ooc: strikes = totally there]

{001.} Lv35 Healer LFG

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 01:02:52 GMT

...I'm not sure about this thing...I don't think we really have these back home, but they were handing them out and telling us to use them, so...

The people at the "Deity Office" didn't really tell me much, just that this is "The City" and that now that I'm here, I probably can't go home, at least not for good. I guess I'll see what they mean soon enough, but in the meantime, I should probably find a safe place to stay. I don't have much money with me, and I doubt it'll be accepted by anyone here anyway, so if I do end up staying here for a while, I'll have to try to find a job. There has to be a hospital somewhere in this city, right? I wonder if they could use me.

A lot of people seem to be out and about today (or maybe this city is always this busy?), and most of them look like they're heading in the same direction. Maybe there's a festival or something today?

I think I'll go check it out--I might learn something more about this place, and being around people seems to make that strange ticking noise go away.

...M-maybe it makes me a bad shinobi, but I really do wish Kakashi or Minato-sensei were here...

...I left the flowers at a place called "The Hall of the Missing". I don't know why, it just felt right. I couldn't carry them around with me forever anyway.

[ooc: A lonely!Rin is heading for the new amusement park to mingle. Feel free comment like normal, or even to bump into her in an action tag if you like~]